After her divorce in 2002, Autumn experienced great devastation in her spirit. She had a heart that bled with the consequences of sin and hurt which penetrated so deep that only the BLOOD OF CHRIST could heal. Constantly going to God, the pieces of her life began to be placed back together. It was that year, 2002, that she humbly, yet boldly, requested that God use her hurt and mistakes for His glory! It was then that she became convinced that her God wanted to user her. No matter where she had been on what had been done, her God was a gracious God. Autumn believes that, “When we draw close to God, He truly does draw close to us.”
She began praying for God to reveal His direction for her life. That prayer led her to pack up her things and depart her home town in Indiana and move to Liberty University in Virginia. It was there Autumn poured her heart and life out for God. While at Liberty, she served in any capacity, with any group that would have her. She describes her time as, “being glued to my Bible, soaking up the holy words that spoke so personally. I was consumed with my God.” After her time at Liberty she was sent out as a female intern to a church in Columbus, OH in 2003.
Still praying for direction, God kept putting on her heart a teen girl conference. Though she found herself intrigued by the thought she didn’t believe that God could really be calling her, “the divorcee” to do such a thing. After all, she had been told but others “God will never use you.” But as she began to pray deeper and deeper on that very thought, God began to speak louder and louder. One day, sitting on a metal chair in the back patio of her intern host home she received an answer to all her prayers. As she petitioned for clarity for the conference she looked down and her Bible was opened to Habakkuk 2:1-4:
I will stand my watch and set on the rampart, and watch to see what He will say to me, and what I will answer when I am corrected. Then the Lord answered me and said: ‘WRITE THE VISION AND MAKE IT PLAIN ON TABLETS, THAT HE MAY RUN WHO READS IT. For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. THOUGH IT TARRIES, WAIT FOR IT; BECAUSE IT WILL SURELY COME, IT WILL NOT TARRY.
“I sat in a pool of tears. I knew. God couldn’t have spoken any clearer. He shouted at me that day.” It was then she knew it was up to her to be willing to wait for His timing. Though she continued to pray year after year she would not receive any sign of this call actually materialize. “Obviously, He needed time to work,” she explains now. “He worked on me, on my broken heart, on my faith, on my willingness to abandon all to Him. Several times since then I have thought, ‘this is it! It is going to happen here,’ just to go then be told ‘NO.’ For a woman with a survivors spirit hearing ‘no’ is devastating, but it does not defeat.” She knew through the years God, in His time, would make it happen.
Confident that my God would not disappoint, I continued to pray and after nine years (all the while becoming more and more confident of her call), she finally Got a yes. During those long nine years she met and married the love of her life, Eddie Miles, and God blessed her with two children, Grace, and Jude. While her husband, Eddie, was interviewing for a youth position with Pastor Jeffress at First Baptist Dallas, Autumn asked if the church would be willing to allow a teen girl conference to be held at the church. When he responded yes, she describes that she began to weep right in his office. “He had no idea that I had been praying for 9 years for the opportunity to speak truth to sweet teenage girls.”
Since then the first BLUSH conference was held at First Baptist Dallas on January 14th and 15th in 2011. Autumn credits God for beginning to do what only He can do… the impossible.
“I don’t know if you’re waiting for something that you know God has called you to. I know we all have a desire to make a difference. We all want to be part of something bigger than ourselves. My advice to you is DO NOT GIVE UP. Pray fervently and without rest. God will bring it to pass if we stand steadfast on His promises to us.”
Not one of the good promises which the Lord has made to the house of Israel failed; all came to pass.